I did it!

So I got up this morning at 5am and went to the gym. I ran (kind of) 3 miles and then lifted weights. Focusing on biceps triceps and shoulders. It wasn't pretty. My running was slow with lots of bouncing behind me and turned into a run walk and my lifting was with light weights. Still I did it and I feel good. We will see how I feel tomorrow. And Friday when I do it again.

It's TIME

I know it isn't quite the first but it is time for me to start working on this baby weight. I am feeling a little more anxious this time around. Maybe it is because I weigh more now than I ever have (not pregnant) or maybe it is because I am done with the baby making business and now I can get my body back for good. I do have some limitations. My calorie intake will need to be higher since I am nursing for 2 babies, and I will have to ramp up much slower with the exercise. I am finding that these babies have really messed up my body. I am up for the challenge.

My updates will be more for me and to keep me in check. This week my goal is to start going to the gym before work on Monday (not this week since I had it off), Wednesday and Fridays. I am also logging what I eat on myfitnesspal.com. I am not limiting what I eat but I am starting to log my intake.

Wish Me Luck!!!

Is Santa Real?

This is the year that Brenten is trying to figure out if Santa is real or not. Apparently 8 is about the age that kids start thinking this way because other moms have told me their kids are too. With so many reality shows on tv, Brenten is always asking if shows are real or not. It is hard to explain that some reality shows are only kind of real. But that's a different story. With all the Christmas shows on, Brenten has been asking with each one if they are real. And typically I just tell them it is just a story someone wrote about santa or something like that. Finally I asked him why he keeps asking if they are real or not and he said he was just trying to figure out if Santa is real or not. I was not ready for this day. Since he is my oldest I had no idea when it was that kids start questioning it. I just told him that Santa only comes to those who believe. Now I will probably never know if he believes or not anymore. I'm a little selfish so I am okay with not knowing. I can go on believing they are little and still believe in Santa.

baby picts

Landon with both babies.


At the babies 2 month check up Maci was 8lb 10.5oz and Beckett was 8lb 11.5oz. They are both doing well. They are about a month behind developmentally but that is expected since they were so small and preemies. Maci is 21in and Beckett 21.5in. They are doing great. Maci has a little bit of thrush and we are still battling acid reflux with Beckett. Hopefully we can start getting him off his medicine for that in a month or two. They both have a hard time turning their heads in one direction. I am told this is also common for twins because they are stuck in the same small area for so long before they are born. Again it isn't severe, just something we are working on. We are still so happy with their progress.

TwO MoNtHs OlD

My babies are 2 months old today. The time has really flown by. I don't have stats because their 2 month appt isn't until next Monday. I will have to update that later. They are doing awesome. We feel so blessed with how well they have done and continue to do.

At about a month they both got little colds and we were told again that Maci had a high chance of going back into the hospital but with lots of suctioning and the strong little thing she is she came out just fine. I think they knew that I couldn't handling spending any extra time out of our house knowing I had to go back to work soon. (see how I made that about me). It is funny how much I have forgotten since Cait was a baby. They already have their own distinct personalities. Their cries are totally different. Maci yells. It is like she has shout outs and they are loud and if she is mad then their just isn't any breaks between her yells. Sometimes she sounds like a cat. Her nickname is Maci cat. Beckett's cry is a little more whiny and sad sounding. Actually he sounds like a sheep. His dad gave him the name of Squawkbox because he squawked when he ate at the hospital. That is because he has some pretty good acid reflux. He is still on the medicine for that. Hopefully he will grow out of it soon.

They are starting to sleep well (not including last night) but they are starting to more consistently make it through the night. We feed them at 10pm and they have been making it to 7am or later. Yesterday they made it to 8:30. This also means they are starting to be awake more during the day. Most of the time when they are awake they want held but every once in a while they will look around and just sit in their seat for a little bit. This makes it sound like they cry all the time. They are actually really good babies. They are just trying to figure out what it means to be awake and not be eating. :)

I can't wait to find out how much they weigh. They are still in newborn clothes but have definitely graduated from the preemie clothes. And they are starting to get chubby. I know they aren't really chubby but they are on their way. They have fuller cheeks and little rolls on their legs. I love them. Maci also had a preemie look to her when she was born and she is losing that. Maybe it is because I am the mom but I don't think she looks preemie at all anymore.

Usually I am in such a hurry for them to get bigger and get to the next stage but I want them to stay little forever. I love how they are right now.

I will have to post pictures later.

Back to Work

My first day back to work was this Monday. I have really been dreading it. I knew that I would have to work a minimum of 2 weeks because I took short term disability and that is part of the benefits requirements. But I was really hoping that Christian would have something permanent at that point and then I would be able to stay home with my babies. Well, now that the time is coming that is not looking to be the case. He has been contracted for this company for November and December and they will have another meeting at the end of this month. They really like him and would hire him on the spot if they had the funding but as with most companies right now the funding is the iffy part. We are giving ourselves 10% chance of him having permanent work with them after this month. Not that great. It has been a great experience for him even if it doesn't work out for the long term. That is most of my stress is I have a feeling that me at work is going to be much much longer. I just really don't know how Christian is going to take care of 5 kids (2 newborns) and do all that goes with that and look for work. Hopefully the babies will be more on a day time schedule soon but right now one of them is usually crying.

Maybe it is because I know these are my last but I feel like I am going to miss everything. I already am. I come home and I get them during their fussy time. At least I get an excuse to sit and hold them. Today and tomorrow I am also missing my kids Christmas concerts so that sucks. Right now I can think of a million things I am missing out on. I know it will get better and if I do need to work for much longer, I am okay with that and willing to. But I could really handle the economy turning around right about now and some jobs opening up for Christian. I know that he would really appreciate that as well. :)

On a positive note, my work is awesome. I couldn't ask to work for a better company. They have been so supportive and flexible with me. The best part is I don't feel like they are giving me special treatment. They do this for all the employees. And it is a good week to come back. Monday was just figuring where I was at. I couldn't believe that I had forgotten some of my passwords. And then yesterday, work took us out to lunch. Today and tomorrow we are working on sub for santa. Our company took 4 families. How cool is that? Today we also have a birthday party. It is all helping to make the week go by faster.

My Landonman

I am writing this so when i am frustrated with him I can come back and read this and remember how sweet and thoughtful he is.

Saturday I took him to Walmart to buy (with his own money) a present for Brenten and Caitlin for Christmas. He looked and looked at the same Star Wars lego sets. Finally I told him I really didn't want to be there all day and asked if he had decided on which one Brenten would like. He said the one that he would really like isn't here. So I asked him which one he was looking for and so he pulled a little picture out of his pocket that he had cut out after Brenten mentioned how much he liked it. I know I am super hormonal right now but seriously I almost cried at Walmart at the effort he was making to get the perfect gift.

We say Landon is our passionate one. He has the biggest smile, heart and snuggles but when he is upset he is very upset. I love with his big personality we can add how thoughtful he is as well.

Thanksgiving

This was our first year with just Christian, me and the kids. Usually we rotate families but we weren't quite ready to travel with the babies. I was nervous because I have never actually cooked a turkey and taking out the stuff in the inside really grosses me out. Luckily my work sent me vouchers for a turkey breast from Honey Baked Hams. Let me tell you that is the way to do it. All I had to do was warm it up in the crock pot. And it was delicious. Landon (my non eater) had to be cut off at one point. Even though we missed hanging out with family it was so nice and relaxing to have a few days off and just hang out.